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i lost my stethoscope. my classic ii se littmann stethoscope which retails at rm230. how?

As usual, tuesday mornings are used to clerk patients. I clerk a kind gentleman and was particularly proud that i managed to cover most of the examination without too much hesitation and going back and forth (i find that i go back and forth since we are combining 3 systems (cvs, respi, and git) examination at one go. so while looking at the neck, i check the jvp and carotid but always forget my tracheal deviation and cricosternal distance. for the chest lagi teruk. so many things to do. usually cvs is alright (i'm still not sure if we are required to check for all the regurg, stenosis tho. feels weird to ask the patient to sit up, lean here, breath in/out/hold, when we're already expecting not to find anything since there is no murmur on auscultation) but respi. omg. i still feel my examination technique really sucks. since for respi it's front and back. i usually do it the easy way and do it once either on the front or back. i know i know... not good to skip steps esp for percussion on front and back since all the percussion areas look at diff lobes of the lung)

anyway, back to the story. so i was at the trolley containing all the patient's notes, etc looking at the gentleman's notes and copying down the relevant info. I was very distracted cause I had to keep an eye out for the house officer to sign something for me. The last time i saw my stethoscope was there. on the trolley. I have the image so clearly in my mind.
I think I must have last placed it there cause after that, i went up to the lockers, got all my stuff then had lunch with my groupmates and then headed down to the clinical skills lab. Nvr took out anything from my bag. Even when I come back, I don't usually take anything out from my bag cause I need the same items everyday. Got up late this morning, rushed to the hospital, then lo and behold... can't find my damn stethoscope. I was still quite calm because I thought "oh.. must hv left it in the wards. it should be there cause who would want to take a stethoscope?" clearly i was mistaken. asked around, searched the entire ward, nothing. my groupmates said maybe i left it at home. rushed back, turned my room upside down, nothing.

and it's supposed to be my last week of placements. ARGHHHHHHHHH. I was looking forward to the end of placements so much. SO SO SO MUCH. and this shit hv to happen now.

honestly... i had a lot of trouble believing that my stethoscope was probably taken by someone. I mean.. a stethoscope. it's not a phone, a wallet, a bag. It's something so specific. It's probably like a welder missing his blow torch. like who the hell would want a blow torch? it's only useful if you know how to use one. So i conclude that whoever who took it can be:
1) a doctor who lost his/her own stethoscope recently and it's too damn stingy or still feeling bitter about it and decided to just take the littmann which is lying around. (or maybe he/she just have a lousy stethoscope) [yea. hope karma gets you back for taking from a student who has no income]
2) a person who wants to sell it on ebay (i saw this user on ebay who keeps selling used stethoscope. like come on... how many times does a person replace his/her stethoscope? and i don't think i've ever heard of anyone collecting old stethoscope from ppl to be resold cause stethoscopes are so reliable, they don't really need to be replaced. this person probably sold all the littmanns he/she found lying around on the wards. i probably would see a dark blue littmann being listed on ebay within these few days) [if this was true... i hope you get caught and hv stethoscopes thrown at you for essentially, stealing. doesn't matter if it was lying around. ]
3) a person who is too poor for christmas gifts and has a relative going to medical school. who knows right? christmas is 1 month away only. [stolen gifts are always classy]
4) a very very blur person who took the nearest stethoscope thinking it was his/hers. Then realize it isn't his/hers and proceeded to dump it in a different ward/hospital wing. [thanks man]
5) pesky visitors that thought having a stethoscope for their little kid to play with is awesome. maybe they can nurture their kid into a doctor by giving littmanns to their son/daughter. [damn you. get a friggin toy]

ugh. i'm just really pissed and frustrated with myself. i know i could have been more careful. i know i could have realized it sooner. :(
now i'm just hoping that someone will find my stethoscope in the wards and hopefully it'll be handed back to me tomorrow