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11:50 pm
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I've concluded that if i manage to read through all my material and pass my EOS i shall be crowned:

Queen of cramming.

seriously. I have so much left to study, my brain is gonna explode just thinking about it.

that's for procrastinating the whole of last week.

what's left is: endocrine, repro, gene, BS,
SEM 2 (ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and stats.

these 2 days will be the most torturous days of exam study period.
and with that, the next update shall be about the stupid EOS and how happy i am that its over.
oh, and of course lots of whiny parts about the exam
7:03 pm
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i <3 this song
its my destressing song

and i'm trying to nail this piece on the piano. still can't find the correct music sheet and my ears are too retarded to transcribe the piece on my own.

ahhh.. eternal sunshine is a good movie
7:53 pm
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another whiny blog post.

why oh why can't they make their spelling standard!!!
vena then we have venae which essentially mean vein.

then we have esophagus and oesophagus
then estrogen and oestrogen

the weirdest one is adrenaline and epinephrine.

then in medicine we have all the cool words like demarcated (differentiation), bifurcation (branching into 2), anastomoses (branching).

and who won't get confuse when we have to memorize crista ampullaris (receptor for balance in the ear), crista terminalis (muscle in the heart) and terminal cisternae (reticulum in the muscle).

then we have: synchondroses (primary cartilaginous joint), symphyses (secondary cartilaginous joint), synathroses (joints with no movement) and syndesmoses (a type of fibrous joint). omggggg

and proteoglycans, prostacyclin and another pro-something-something-i-can't-remember-anymore (SHIT!)

don't get me started on the abbreviations.
GPI, VEGF, TXA, CHF, RVF, ADH, ANF, ACF, IFN, TPR (lol..), APC, TSH, JGA, the list goes on.
and in this list there's only 4 hormones. hormones are like... the tome of abbreviations
10:58 pm
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(just in case ppl thought they came to some kind of weird fetish site)


hate/like ppl?

why lemon. i dunno.
i was thinking of a fruit that was yellow inside out.
i came out with lemon.
yeah i know they have a bit of white too.
but at least i didn't choose starfruit.
or mango

man.. starfruit sounds gay

banana is actually kinda yellow inside too but i can't change a slang so i have to stick with it.
6:30 pm
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hmm.. i was wondering over this:

what makes chinese look chinese; japanese, japanese; korean, korean; etc?

and caucasians.

i know caucasians look a world different from us but i really can't make out what makes us look so oriental and them so.. western.
The nose? but some japanese have high nose bridge and small nose
The eyes? Some orientals have big eyes too. and double eyelid for that matter.
Mouth? gah. can't think of any difference.

One thing i did notice though is the eyebrows. Caucasians have their eyebrows closer to their eyes since their eyes are deep setting. Ours are further away.

Just a weird thing i notice when i draw. sometimes they come out looking like a westerner sometimes oriental. maybe yeen can shed light.

hahaha.. i decided to just go ahead and do my own experiment. photoshopped a pic to make it look more caucasian.

ori (i chose a pretty bad pic. does she look very oriental?):

I still can't make her look 100% caucasian. and damn. the photoshopped pic looks too fake.
looks like some botched plastic surgery. haizzz

for comparison:
(changed a few things on the photoshopped pic. that's why she looks a tad diff fr above)
can u guys guess what i changed?
7:44 pm
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i think i'm suffering from bloggerhoea.

lock me in a room with internet connection + com with all my med notes and tell me that i only can get out if i memorize all of my notes you'll find me blogging 99% of the time.

procrastination is evil!!

anyway, just thought of something quite funny.

if letsay i were to explain about the "bintik kuning" in our eye to my dear yum cha gang friends it would go:
"the bintik kuning is the spot of clearest vision.The deepest layer in our eye is the nervous layer and the bintik kuning is where there is a central depression on that layer."

now, in medical lingo:
"macula lutea is where cones are concentrated on the retina fovea centralis."

medical lingo makes all sentences shorter and more accurate.
and nobody can understand what the heck we are talking about.

it's like a secret society :D

If anybody saw the news on mon, they reported that a traffic jam was caused by a car who stopped by the side of the road. Passerbys saw a motionless driver so they thought he was dead. Police arrived with a forensic team i think and they were about to check his pulse when he woke up. Apparantly he is a doctor who was so tired, he stopped his car to sleep for a while.
They didn't say how long he was asleep for though but i guess pretty long since he managed to cause a traffic jam

a life of a doctor is so sad ;(

dunno if the police fined him.

another sad sad story is told by my sis.
after working crazy hours this doctor was damn tired by the end of his shift. He drove home and later died in an accident. This really happened in Boxhill Hospital.
That's why when my sis fr that hospital tried to drive home after a looong shift the nurses advised her to take the train instead.
weird cat
2:01 am
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my neighbour across the street "owns" a cat.
"owns" because they just feed them and the cat sleeps outside sort of thing.

anyway, since Hari Raya, my neighbours have mysteriously disappered till today so their cat comes over to my place instead (since i made the mistake of rubbing its head when she was sitting on one of my house's pillar.

so i feed it now with whatever food my family doesn't wanna eat (fats and bones).
my mom already warned me this cat is not coming in the house so yeah.. its still a stray.

and not exactly a cat anyway, more of a kitten.

but this kitten is damn weird. whenever it sees anybody in my house, it straight away rubs its head all over the person's leg.
sometimes i play with it (buahahhaa... behind the door without my mom seeing) and whenever i sit it like go a bit cuckoo. It goes on a crazy rubbing frenzy. seriously. It's main objective seems to be getting its head to rub against my face.
and omg.. it climbs on my shoulder, etc etc. gila edi
fyi, i took a shower after that. it's still a feral with ticks and fleas all over anyway :/
and it rubs its head so hard till whiskers comes off.

ganas or not?

at first i thought its on heat (damn geli) but no... its not woh.. cause all the male cats in the neighbourhood aren't following it or anything.

the only reason i can think of is that the cat wants FOOD. so in xx's words, its a whore cat.
whoring herself for food.

or either its just too damn friendly
8:25 pm
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yeah.. more procrastination goodness

The Self:
[1] Name: Sooky (too many ppl call me this now. even i refer to myself as sooky T_T. sookY not sookIE. or SUKI. i dunno, i'm pretty fussy)
[2] Nickname: oh whoops. refer to above. + sookychengy, redtomato, erm.. somehow i became kiasugirl in xx's blog
[3] Married: no
[4] Zodiac Sign: cancer. that's right the fierce and smart zodiac sign. buahahahhaa
[5] Gender: Female
[6] Age: 19
[7] High School: SMKSJ
[8] College: Taylors College. (i seriously thought taylors was a college for tailors when i was somewhere around 9)
[9] Height: Varies with diff measuring devices. what can i say, my bone is like jell-o
[10] Weight: depends when u weigh me. exam period or non-exam period.
[11] Do you like yourself: sometimes
[12] Piercings: 3 on each ear
[13] Right or left: rightie
[14] Are you a freak : freak of nature? probably. aren't we all freaks to be the only living, talking organism in the whole world to walk on 2 legs? and the only organism to feed their babies with milk from diff species?
[15] Hair: dark dark brown roots showing with dyed dark mahagony brown and copper-red highlights
[16] Skin: tanned.
[17] Allergic: to a certain anti-emetic drug.
[18] What are you doing now: supposed to be studying the skin.
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: finish studying
[20] What will you do 10 years later: if i'm not dead yet, prob the same thing i'm doing 1 hr later: still studying

[21] Live with mother/father/parents: parents
[22] Siblings (included you): 4
[23] Eldest: sister
[24] Youngest: brother
[25] Love/hate your family: they are lovable when they are not in the naggy mode

(too many memes are meant for those who were/are attached. DAMN IT! I'M CHANGING THE WHOLE THING. cheers to being single!!!!)

(this is gonna be damn random)
[26] If your house was burning down, what three misc items would u take (meaning the other occupants of your house already grabbed clothing, money and imp. doc): my old drawings, handphone and my cert folder (damn.. i am kiasu)
[27] Fav movie of all time: Hmmm... too many to narrow down.
[28] Would you go for plastic surgery: I dunno.
[29] The hardest thing you had to do emotionally: Bury the dead kitten my ex-cat gave birth to
[30] Same qws but physically now: Hmm.. can't remember. but prob cram the entire SAM physics sylabbus in one night. i did that for SPM trials too.
[31] The most grotesque thing you've ever seen real life: A guy masturbating. nuff said.
[32] The weirdest outfit you've ever worn: Erm.. dressing up as jasmine on orientation week. i think that is my one most weirdest outfit.
[33] You will die for: myself. and prob diamonds
[34] Choose, a safe and boring life or an exciting and dangerous life: The latter.
[35] The worst thing an acquaintance/friend/family done to you: Some stupid girl borrowed my uniform and returned it to me prob unwashed and dirtied and had the nerve to ask me if she could borrow it from me again. ish
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: straight
[37] Are you ticklish: yes
[38] Who is the worst politician alive today: Either g. bush or soon to be dpm. damn too many to name
[39] Which is worst, to be betrayed by a close friend/family/lover or to be murdered by a stranger: betrayed. though dying would suck too
[40] Special talent: I got like.. bendable fingers.

[41] Your first best friend: Hmm.. a girl in std 1 which i can't even recall her name now. Well... can't be blamed since she moved away to a new town in std 2.
[42] Your first enemy: i forget my enemies. cause i nvr see them again.
[43] The friend you love the most: Yum cha gang :D and the 2 other musketeers in IMU
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1only): Man... i have to think long and hard about this and i can't since i spent most of my time creating qws just now. stupid me :(

so not answering
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: Hmmm.. I can't. later the others will come after me with pickforks.
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: I only have a handful of guy friends. sooo.... none i can say is more handome-er than the other.
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: those that pretend to be naive eventhough they are not.
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: those that disrespect women
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: no.
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: omg.. how many qws must be changed.... YES! ALL MY BEST FRIENDS ARE MY EX LOVERS.
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: I'll verbally slap her.
[52] If your friend betray you: zomg. they are gone from my life. i'm not the kind of active aggresive person unless you really get on my nerves. i am passive aggresive. so they will be totally gone form my life.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: I'll stay away. prob that friend is weird and desperate.
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: depends whether i like him back. if not.. X_X
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: Hmm. depends on how old i am that time. hahahahahhah

[56] Are you a good student: No. last minute work make me a bad student.
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yes. but uni hardly has any homework
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: In smksj it was Pn. Mah. now... hmmm Prof.Yaadav isn't too bad. and Prof Yasmin. at least i don't fall asleep in their class
[59] Always late to school/college: Hahaha.. most of the time
[60] Your class: ? my class? batch name: MEDT 108. lol
[61] You love your seniors: dunno a lot of them. But i can see that they do help out if the jr ever ask for help
[62] Senior who you love the most: lol. MY BROTHER!!!
[63] Your classmates good/bad: good la
[64] Excellent result classmate: everybody in my batch knows this. Prof Thomas (our batch added the prof ourselves. that's how smart he is) prob some other smart ppl there too. + there are scholarship holders in my batch
[65] Laziest classmate: i think there are a lot. lol. prob one of them is me :D

[66] Smart people: Dun act stupid
[67] Stupid people: dun act smart
[68] Good looking people: can continue becoming eye candy for the opposite gender.
[69] Ugly people: Can continue making good looking ppl look better (ouch)
[70] Funny people: rocks.
[71] Cute people: err. prob the sweetest ppl i know. look at sabby. :D
[72] Bad people: i don't know any personally.
[73] Honest people: aren't really honest all the time
[74] Acting people: errrrrrrr... acting ppl? wth? acting ppl are stupid
[75] You are what kind of people: slacker ppl

[76] Lip or eyes: eyes. ahh.. i like caucasian eyes. they come in multicolour
[77] Hugs or kisses: hugs.
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: lol. this qw is sooo meant for girls. stomach
[81] Listener or talker: talker. but yapping too much is bad
[82] Romantic or rich: aw man. can't it be romantic and rich? rich then.
[83] Good husband or Good Father: husband. buahahahhah

[84] Age to get marry: no definite age.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): none
[86] Career: mine is set in stone currently: doctor
[87] Salary: more the better
[88] Retirement age: so sad. most drs looks like they nvr ever retire unless they get a serious health condition (cancer, heart failure, stroke) or stuck gold. seriously.
[89] Properties value: wat kind of qw is this? properties value??? stupid qw
[90] Wishes: a good and stress free life

too lazy
11:08 pm
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multiple post in a day.
yeesh... what a procrastinator i am.

i feel upset and depressed now.

i feel the knowledge slipping away. all i've memorized are all short term memory. and if i don't go over my notes again, i won't be able to remember them.

and yet, i have last sem's notes to go over too. new things to learn.

i'm not too sure if i'll be able to go through all of last sem's notes and yet i know i have to go over this sem's notes.

and the fact that my exam is basically all SAQs, i can't cincai tembak.

arghhh.. how i hate this course now
7:37 pm
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I read one of mel's blog post (yes, i do read those blog i link :D)
and one of hers was talking about times back in high school.

ah... nostalgia.

which reminds me, I have been having really weird bizarre dreams lately.
I keep dreaming of SMKSJ.

yes... weird....................

and not once. but trice.

but in my dreams, everything was just wrong cause... the ppl studying there are friends/ acquaintances from college or uni. There are some ppl who were actually studying there in my dreams but those ppl are like... i nvr even talked to them before. They just suddenly appear in my subconsciousness.


then today i had a dream about my exam.
I usually get dreams like this (yes... my kiasuness even leaked into my dream) around the exam period about me being late for an exam, getting exam results but so far in those dreams i nvr actually got the chance to see my virtual exam results.

this time, i saw it.

lol... if i can get exam results like what i did in my dream, i'll be damn happy.

i wish that dream did come true. :D

(ps: but somehow things that do happen in my dreams have a funny way of happening the exact opposite of what i dreamt. hahaha... and it'll prob be true if i don't study my sem 1 stuff right away!! I'M STILL IN HOLIDAY MOOD (i slept a total of 15 hrs today :D))
2:43 pm
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1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
2. Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse (sook: lol. how are they going to be forced to do it? tie them to a chair in front of a com and make them do this tag i say!!) .These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by:: Su Yen

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
:: oh hohohohoho... revenge is sweet.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
::to be super doctor and come up with vaccines for all the diseases in the world and at the same time invent a virus to kill all potential rapists/perverts (oh no... would all the men die?)

3. What is your dream?
:: uhhh... another dream would be to have earn like 10000000000000 dollars each day cause i'll patent all my inventions (take that 3rd world countries. maybe if all the stupid civil wars/dictatorship stop i won't patent my malarial vaccine)

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
:: stop med school. live and be free =travel the worldddd!. (lol.. noticed they don't say million anymore. our money value is just getting smaller and smaller)

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
:: wah liau. scandalous

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
:: being loved cause like loving another is more painful if they don't love u back. if someone loves me and i don't love that person back... buahahahha i don't have to care.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
:: erm... i won't wait for him no more if i get a billion dollars

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
:: kill the person he's attached to. yay!
fine. a more serious answer: bah, i'm better off without him.

9. (i changed the qw, check su yen's for the ori)
Do you think the world would be better off if everyone has the same religion/ethnicity/ etc?
:: Yes. eventhough it might be boring, wars won't occur as much. but prob we will find a different reason to have wars (eg: someone stole a person's toaster and it prob escalates into a war since we are all so bored)

10. (changed again. sick and tired of gf/bf qws)
You see a 50 year old man entwine arms with a girl about the age of 20+ and find out they are gf/bf. What are your first thoughts?
:: GOLD DIGGER!!!! lol. even i as a girl attack the female counterpart first. what if later u found out that the 50 year old man is a poor bugger who is a total playboy? see... don't judge ppl so fast.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time.?
:: 29. probably trying to get some sleep in the hospital

12. What's your fear?
:: Cockroach, worms, tiny tiny spaces

13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
:: Whether i should bother to head to IMU

14. Would you give all in a relationship?
:: no idea. too lazy to change qws again

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
:: The one with better genes and attributes. hey, survival of the fittest k

16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
:: No. I'm quite a naggy person. i'll prob bring it up again 10 yrs into the relationship and nag about it.

17.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
:: Single. haven't been attached. but i think kind of a hassle especially if the person is the possesive kind. or the damn playboy type. or anytype.

18. If your girlfriend/boyfriend told u that she/he is actually a prince/princess, what will u do.?
:: Show me the money.

I don't normally tag, but i think xx and yeen will give some funny/fab answers. siao chen too. but she's tagged already.
yen won't do tags :(
and kaye... I TAG HER FIRST! YAY!!!! (her first tag. ahhh... memories.i can't remember my first tag. lol)
joanne... busy? :D
(honesty is optional. I WANT FUNNY ANSWERS!)
2:30 pm
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it's over it's over

but oh no... it feels like the calm before a storm

arghhh.. 2 weeks of i'm-supposed-to-study-but-in-holidaying-mood

not to mention the effort needed to condense, pulverize, mince, blend, destroy, squeeze and smash what seems like a full 12 course chinese dinner which normally takes... an entire night into.... a peanut, which takes like 3 seconds to munch and swallow.

i dunno actually. does chinese dinners have 12 dishes altogether? hmmm
11:00 pm
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my friend tells me there are rumours the world is ending in 2012.
so... i googled it (naturally) and the internet is filled with the same rumour.


(copy pasted fr a website)

1. Mayan Calendar
The first mob to predict 2012 as the end of the world were the Mayans, a bloodthirsty race that were good at two things:

Building highly accurate astrological equipment out of stone and
Sacrificing Virgins.

Thousands of years ago they managed to calculate the length of the lunar moon as 329.53020 days, only 34 seconds out. The Mayan calendar predicts that the Earth will end on December 21, 2012. Given that they were pretty close to the mark with the lunar cycle, it's likely they've got the end of the world right as well.

2. Sun Storms
Solar experts from around the world monitoring the sun have made a startling discovery: our sun is in a bit of strife. The energy output of the sun is, like most things in nature, cyclic, and it's supposed to be in the middle of a period of relative stability. However, recent solar storms have been bombarding the Earth with so much radiation energy, it's been knocking out power grids and destroying satellites. This activity is predicted to get worse, and calculations suggest it'll reach its deadly peak sometime in 2012

3. The Atom Smasher
Scientists in Europe have been building the world's largest particle accelerator. Basically its a 27km tunnel designed to smash atoms together to find out what makes the Universe tick. However, the mega-gadget has caused serious concern, with some scientists suggesting that it's properly even a bad idea to turn it on in the first place. They're predicting all manner of deadly results, including mini black holes. So when this machine is fired up for its first serious experiment in 2012, the world could be crushed into a super-dense blob the size of a basketball.

4. The Bible says...
If having scientists warning us about the end of the world isn't bad enough,religious folks are getting in on the act aswell. Interpretations of the Christian Bible reveal that the date for Armageddon, the final battle between Good an Evil, has been set down for 2012. The I Ching, also known as the Chinese book of Changes, says the same thing, as do various sections of the Hindu teachings.

5. Super Volcano
Yellowstone National Park in the United States is famous for its thermal springs and Old Faithful geyser. The reason for this is simple - it's sitting on top of the world's biggest volcano, and geological experts are beginning to get nervous sweats. The Yellowstone volcano has a pattern of erupting every 650,000 years or so, and we're many years overdue for an explosion that will fill the atmosphere with ash, blocking the sun and plunging the Earth into a frozen winter that could last up to 15,000 years. The pressure under the Yellowstone is building steadily, and geologists have set 2012 as a likely date for the big bang.

6. The Physicists
This one's case of bog-simple maths mathematics. Physicists at Berekely Uni have been crunching the numbers. and they've determined that the Earth is well overdue for a major catastrophic event. Even worse, they're claiming their calculations prove, that we're all going to die, very soon - while also saying their prediction comes with a certainty of 99 percent- and 2012 just happens to be the best guess as to when it occurs.

7. Slip-Slop-Slap-BANG!

We all know the Earth is surrounded by a magnetic field that sheilds us from most of the sun's radiation. What you might not know is that the magnetic poles we call north and south have a nasty habit of swapping places every 750,000 years or so - and right now we're about 30,000 years overdue. Scientists have noted that the poles are drifting apart roughly 20-30kms each year, much faster than ever before, which points to a pole-shift being right around the corner. While the pole shift is underway, the magnetic field is disrupted and will eventually disappear, sometimes for up to 100 years. The result is enough UV outdoors to crisp your skin in seconds, killing everything it touches.

Ok... I guess if any of the above happens (xcept for pt 1 and 4, since pt 1 is just about a calender made by ppl dunno how many thousand years ago ending and pt 4 has been repeated pretty often throughout the years) it'll come out in the newspaper/mass media a few hours/days/months before it actually happens.

Till then, what the heck. i have an exam to sit for
10:52 pm
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-jae ric, in lecture theatre, a week more to exam

- the call of sooky on the verge of death due to hyposleepism (yes, i just made that word up)

10:41 pm
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the most disgusting module i have to study is......................

the winner hands down.

*if you are eating spagetti and have a strong disgust for worms... u have been warned.*
*no images though. so no worries*

in this module, super disgusting pictures can be found.
i thank god that my lectures notes aren't riddled with pictures (though the pictures will certainly create an impact)

probably has something to do with my phobia of worms and all things that is long and move like a worm.
snakes i have no probs with so long as they are not soft, slimy and they move the disgusting way caterpillars, earthworms, etc do.

so yes, back to the topic

omg......... the worst of the lot is helminthic infections (intestinal worm infections)
hookworms can penetrate the skin and crawl everywhere leaving 100's of tunnels in your skin


wait... their life cycle includes penetrating the heart and lungs!! THE LUNGS!
so when u got a funny tickle at the back of your throat... u might end up coughing up a worm. or wormS (seriously)

then wat else... oh.. i say the most disgusting crap is Ascaris lumbricoides
Ugh... i've met that worm face to face before (thank god it was encased in a glass box) during one of the parasitology lab sessions.
and omg... its as thick as a rope. most worms are pretty damn small (like threads) this one is like.... as fat as half a human finger. and long. its as long as the entire length of your fingers+palm
And this disgusting piece of crap can crawl up to your LUNGS TOOO!!!!!

so i made the mistake of googling the worm in Google Images.

ahhh... if u wanna see wat i saw, go ahead.
don't blame me if u lose your lunch or dinner.


the image is burned into my brain... bluekkk

(ps: it involved a. lumbricoides + a girl + nose + mouth. i think u can sort of guess
another one is like a butt+ omg... pail loads of worms coming out)

uhhhh... no more spagetti for a loooooooooooooooong time...
i feel slightly nauseated now
9:29 pm
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Who wanna see sooky cry?

Well, you can if u catch me in either situation:
a) Realizing that I can’t remember any !#!$#!$#@$@ even after spending 1 week squeezing, compacting, pulverizing facts and jamming it down my throat
b) Having a major exam the next day with a stack of notes still unread and only 2 hours left before the exam
c) Failing an exam after spending so many sleepless nights


I feel sad…… I can’t remember my parasitology. I can’t remember anything!!! Including the 101 life cycles of diff parasites that I spent 3 sleepless nights over.
Even the disease name doesn’t ring a bell.


And yet, after so many similar situations (SAM, SPM, and many final exams (but actually they are not major… but I thought they were at that time. So bleh) I still procrastinate with my work.
I actually think I need to fail a major exam to get it stuck in my brain that CONSTANT WORK is best.

And it seems very possible now.
But now if I fail I’ll prob will just get killed by my parents. Lol
Imagine…. Rm50k can buy so many things. I have to work in breadstory for…. I dunno… 250 months?
Lol.. 20 yrs of working in breadstory all blown into the gutter by one exam cause I was too lazy to work harder.
MUST WORK HARDER……………………………………………
9:06 pm
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one of my lamest moments.

me: hey! airasia flies to Melbourne now!

bro: huh? i thought they are AIRASIA. aren't they supposed to fly in asia?
(*note: my bro just came back fr UK so he damn "katak dibawah tempurung" cause when he left airasia did fly only within asia)

me: Nooooo... this is not airasia. It's AIRASIA X. So when u read it, its airasia (not)

bro: yalor hor.
(yay! lameness runs in the family!!)

i wonder if tony fernandez intended it to be read that way too.....
12:08 am
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since i'm soo bored, i shall improve my literacy.

The itch.
Nails dug into my skin and I let out a sigh of relief. It was the same damn itch again. I scratched my back furiously, alternating between the 2 parallel spots which are just where my shoulder blades would be.
"Thank god we have nails," I thought to myself.
The raised spots have been itching for weeks now. Or have the weeks turn into months? Even the doctors doesn't seem to know why in the world they suddenly erupted or how to even cure it. I was particularly pissed off with this doctor who said my lack of hygiene was the cause of this annoyance. Even with the frequent baths and scrubbing, the bloody spots won't go away.

Defeated, I finally rise from the glow of the computer screen, leaving the English assignment I was eager to finish that night. It was a great feat for me, the one that uses her leg to pick up anything on the floor as she was too lazy to bend her back for it. Laziness was the only reason why I would rather use my nails- the sure way to get raw patches of skin glowing red and occasionally scars; than to use the ointment which does relieve the itch some what.

I looked at my back through a mirror.
"Shit" The raised spots looked much bigger. It may be due to the scratching. Worried, I slabbed on an extra amount of ointment. I was somewhat disappointed the bumps didn't immediately shrink when I glanced at the mirror again. Sadden by the fact that my backless tops have to remain at the back of the closet for maybe another eternity, sleep was all I wanted.

I woke up with a feeling like I was lying down on 2 golfballs. Panic was all I could do when I realized the 2 golf balls were actually the bumps. I ran to the bathroom and looked into the mirror.


I peered closer. I tried to turn my head as much as possible but realized that 360 head turns were only possible when one is possessed by demonic spirits like in the Exorcist. So using my years of expertise in "self photography" I took a picture of my back and zoomed into those spots on the small LCD screen.
It wasn't enough for me. What I was seeing, I could not believe. I took more shots and uploaded it to my computer. There I saw the same thing on my 19" screen.Puzzled, I wondered if I had accidentally had alcohol or sniffed some marijuana in the air. Realizing it was pretty impossible to be getting delusional with a sip of alcohol taken last week or sniffing minute amounts of marijuana particle in the air, I stared at the picture of my back.
I peered. and looked, and analyzed it.

But still I reached the same conclusion:
I've been growing wings.


sry for wasting your time... hahahahahaha
12:03 am
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with my sleep hours being so screwed up, i'm more screwed now.

i'm having insomnia.

the sun is already up when i'm typing this and i haven't slept.
my head is pounding and i'm just sooo tired, but when i lie on my bed my brain just goes into overdrive. I keep thinking and thinking and thinking it's so annoying.
I think about all kinds of things. like how i want to write this post, or how I'm going to study or how next year's orientation is going to be like or what happens when I've to go to my twinning uni or what is it like if the trip to langkawi really materialize.

its so annoying to have all these thoughts when I want to sleep. wish there was just an off button.

10:29 pm
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greys anatomy

i heart.

but i just read a blog by a med student saying that he can't watch medical dramas for their unrealistic settings/plots/ etc.

maybe i shall learn to hate greys anatomy with time. and house. and all other medical dramas.

my sister doesn't watch any now since
a) she can't stand the nonsense in those shows
b) more importantly, she doesn't have the time

right now, according to her, after medical school your life is basically:
a)sleep-5-6 hrs
b)work- depending on shift, usually 10-12 hrs then u have overtime too :D
c)eat-1 hr

and when you have free time, its usually for studying since you don't want to lose all those precious information accumulated in medical school and also research on new medical updates.

when you have your holiday its grocery shopping and cleaning up the place or either just sleeping.

and the amount of paperwork is shocking. i think she has worked overtime just to get her paperwork done.

then not to mention being on call. meaning that the hospital can call u up anytime if there is an emergency. that's why doctors even have a special room so they can sleep there.

and in greys anatomy, the oncall room has lost its meaning. and all the interns still have nicely placed hair at the end of their shift. not to mention the amount of free time they all seem to have.
and they have a few multipurpose surgeons. (SS- super surgeons)

house... seems like the whole hospital only has house and his team of doctors. which doctor would actually break into ppl's house to look for toxins, etc?
and seems to be the multipurpose surgeon. any surgical scene and he will be the surgeon.

but nevertheless. i love tv series