suddenly i see
3:21 am
am i really a medical student?
but i feel so dumb and inadequate.
Ugh. my skill sucks terribly. my brain can still be salvage if i learn not to waste my time so much.
but skills.... if practice makes perfect, i probably have to practice 100 times before I can get things right.
sucky sucky sucky.
i reckon it's to do with self confidence. Which is worse for me since I'm going overseas. They hate people without confidence. It's their personal vendetta to trample those who are too shy to speak or do anything.
isn't there a drug i can take to increase my confidence?
(oh yeah... there is: ALCOHOL.
but i don't think they would appreciate if i walk into the hospital slightly tipsy.)
but i feel so dumb and inadequate.
Ugh. my skill sucks terribly. my brain can still be salvage if i learn not to waste my time so much.
but skills.... if practice makes perfect, i probably have to practice 100 times before I can get things right.
sucky sucky sucky.
i reckon it's to do with self confidence. Which is worse for me since I'm going overseas. They hate people without confidence. It's their personal vendetta to trample those who are too shy to speak or do anything.
isn't there a drug i can take to increase my confidence?
(oh yeah... there is: ALCOHOL.
but i don't think they would appreciate if i walk into the hospital slightly tipsy.)
