Today I woke up, and wondered what will it be like:

• to attend my prom to see most of my batchmates dolled up for the first time- 10th april
• to finally finish and hand up the convocation magazine to the printers- april 12th, hopefully
• to receive the envelope containing the matching results- lol. anywhere from end of april to the end of may, thanks to the "efficiency" of our beloved AAD
• to attend the last lecture in Bukit Jalil- 20-ish May
• to hear the alarm go off at the end of MEQ during our last summatives- 20 something May
• to hear the annoying buzzer going off, signalling the end of OSCE, the end of semester 5 and my 2.5 years in Bukit Jalil- 10th June (i'm envisioning myself to just laugh crazily at the relieve of all the build up stress)
• to run/walk (see... not having high expectations for myself) across the finish line of the 10km run- June 27th
• to sort out things in Malaysia, to pack my bags, to teach my mom how to use MSN since she can't rely on me anymore to communicate with my sis and brother and eventually me and finally to live on my own. - anywhere from this year to next. hahahahaa

i'll eventually come to these dates whether i want it or not. Just a question of whether I'll be prepared when they come. Not too long ago I was wondering what will it be like to end SAM, to enter IMU, to be a semester 5 students. When you're wondering about these things, they seem to be more meaningful and in a way... magical? But when they've gone and past, you realize that these days are not those that you remember in the years to come. It's the days where you share a light moment with your friends or family members, however insignificant the date is.

:/ lol. i'm emo because i'm still working on my 40-page report. Haven't studied in 72 hours. :(

...telling me what to do.................

sigh

It's funny how we forget about our sufferings and pain once that period is over.
After we've recovered from a flu, we forgot the pain of having a stuffy nose so bad, you can't sleep at night. We forgot about the fever that makes you delirious about time and space.

So similarly, after an exam, we forgot about the many all nighters we pulled off, the many many hours of staring at the same notes, the ringing effect after putting on our headphones way too long, etc
I forgot all about that. Until now. When I have to study again.

I suddenly remember that studying for sem 4 was so bad, I regularly used eye-mo to rehydrate my dying eyes in the wee hours of the morning. I remember walking around the whole house while everyone was in lalaland.
Then after the exams, all I can remember is watching serials, bumming around and staring at the ceiling, That's why I thought that I didn't deserve the marks I got since I was such a slacker. But heck. Come to think about it, I deserve my marks. I burnt the midnight oil so many times, if it was real oil, trees around my house would've died due to the pollution. If losing sleep had any effect on our lifespan, I think I just shorten my life by 5 years.

Dumb studying

i am emotionally retarded.

:D

btw, should i do a post on the waterfall trip? I feel so lazy

got my first saman. ;(

bad day today. tsk tsk.